This month hasn't been exciting since I was too busy revising for exams, so haven't been out a lot. But this month has had more downs since I've been stressing about University exams and feeling like I couldn't do much about it. You know when you just start contemplating your whole life because you was too busy procrastinating the whole time and 5 days before the exam, I realised maybe I should revise instead of crying on the inside. Also I just got to a certain point where I just felt so low, not because anything was wrong just one of those days, well which turned into weeks for me. This time last year I was panicking over my A-levels and wishing I could start University, but I found myself at the exact same position. I decided to start revising and felt much better since I was starting to actually understand it.
The good news is I can officially say I have managed to get through my first year of university, even though the year has gone past quickly it still felt like it was taking forever. Also since I'm a tutor, my year 6 students were leaving, felt a bit gutted since I've been tutoring them for 2 years. But they completely managed to cheer me up since they all made little speeches for me which was emotional and funny. It was an amazing experience for me since those kind of things have never been said to me and I felt like my hard work finally paid off.
Also I've made my first ever summer bucket list since I thought I need to start exploring, as I'm a routine kind of person. I have crossed out my first task which was swimming, and even though I was scared for my dear life, I can bravely say I have made a membership so I can go weekly. I have also added 5 new things to my summer bucket list which I have always wanted to do and will reveal later on. Hopefully I can managed to get through them all by the end of August.
All in all this month hasn't been that exciting since I just kept having emotional breakdowns because of the amount of pressure is put on us by exams. If anyone is in the same position as me and is just emotionally cracking I've got some advice for you. You need to just take a step back and see where you are going wrong and for me it was that I wasn't revising but panicking because I didn't know anything. Trust me when I say this, just stay calm, do yoga, meditate, whatever helps you relax. As I see it, if you have done everything you could of possibly done and revised as well as you should have, then you have nothing to worry about. And for all you who are like me and worry about everything, I can assure you it's probably all in your head and everything is good and just take a chill pill.
Feel free to share your month experiences with me, you can either leave a comment or send me an email privately if you need someone to talk to or need some advice.
Email: tinyimportantthings@hotmail.com :)
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